First week

I never thought I'd say this, but i really miss my ex-hospital and GS!!

I miss the nice bosses
I miss the friendly nurses who you can gossip with while working
I miss my fellow HOs
I miss my MOs
I miss having 98.8% of my colleagues and bosses being guys
I miss the numerous and fast computers and printers that actually work
I miss the cosy MO rooms where at least 6 of us can do discharges at the same time chat with each other.
I miss the blood trays
I miss the bld c/s sets +++++
I miss the cso
I miss the call dinners
I miss the team dinners
I even miss the team list!

I just feel so alone all the time, with no one to talk to. And i miss having the autonomy for my patients. And i miss the satisfaction of taking care of my patients and reporting my work during exit.

Now, all i am is truly a glorified pen.
I just feel so sian all the time that i become damn slow and stupid. I think my Reg is rather disgusted with me.

Today we had a sort of impromptu get-together with some of my ex-partners and it made me feel so much better to have them feel exactly the same way i do.
We all had varying degrees of depression in our first week.

Sigh what am i going to do?