Confirm will lose weight

Hey everyone, thanks for asking abt me..
I'm still alive...

Barely....

Working from 7am (sometimes 6am) to 9pm (sometimes 10-11pm) every single freaking day (weekends is 3pm) is no joke...
Having to work till 9pm on post-call with zero sleep is no joke...
Having nothing to eat the whole day until 10pm at night is ... well i'm kinda used to it already, u'd be surprised by how much my appetite has decreased now.
Having zero sleep during calls and still being expected to function at top-notch the next day is no joke.
[I must say, I've done various funny things on post-call days, like nearly toppling off my chair while dozing at M&M, falling asleep with my eyes open in the middle of doing a discharge summary, i think I actually typed out snippets of my dream in the discharge, and to my horror, even printed it out!, falling asleep in the middle of a busy restaurant halfway through lunch (this was on a sun) and not even realising it, falling asleep in the middle of talking]. All i can say is, there goes all my hopes of getting a car this yr, I've been so tired nowadays that outside working hours, I fall asleep when i sit down anywhere anytime.

It's been a rollercoaster ride so far, on bad days when the list is impossible and u have so many changes and the nurses still call you every five minutes for changes and new elective cases, I'm close to slipping into depression, on good days (weekends) I go bouncing around the hospital smiling at everyone and even the ward clerk would comment that i look chirpy.

But i'm surviving, and learning to make the most out of things and trying (hard) to find joy in whatever i'm doing everyday.
And I really learnt to appreciate (some of) my patients and my colleagues. The other HOs are all wonderful and we help out and encourage each other everyday.

I'm just looking forward to my 2nd month when hopefully, hopefully i can get some weekends and post-calls off.