Worrying Indeed

LOA:
My friends, aka former buffet kakis, commented that my appetite seemed to have decreased a lot. Normally, I can match them bite for bite, erm.. more like course for course, but yesterday, I can’t even finish half of my pasta, much less the huge ice-cream parfait thingy I reluctantly ordered, cos my friends as usual ordered 1 dessert each, and out of habit I followed suit.
So I began to recall that indeed my appetite has been decreasing for the past few days (cough.. with my kind of appetite the decrease wasn’t obvious la)
And today, I truly scared myself. I had to skip lunch and could only eat at 3pm, but didn’t feel hungry at all. At Ikea, I felt super full after eating a few bites of fish, a few fries and 1 chicken wing. Couldn’t even eat my fav poached salmon. And I still felt full at dinner time at 8pm, and only ate porridge.
Really quite worrying, either I have some chronic subacute GE or there’s really a more malignant reason to my LOA.

Anhedonia:
= loss of interest for hobbies. Eg. Blogging (need I say more?)
Christmas is around the corner. And Christmas has always been my favourite time of the year. I love Christmas and I love and know all Christmas carols (I’m the girl who can sing ‘Twelve Days of Christmas’ from memory and with great emotion, and often got asked to do so after I’m under alcoholic influence.) Usually at this time, I would be singing Christmas carols and dragging everyone to Orchard at every chance and shopping for Christmas gifts. This year, I can’t even listen to ‘Silent Night’ without feeling melancholy.
The only thing I can still do, and with great pleasure, is sleep.

Low mood:
I have been having attacks of low mood now and then, getting increasingly frequent. Onset usually 5min into sitting at my study table. And also occasionally pangs of guilt when I’m doing something other than studying.

Lethargy:
++++++

IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome):
Worst than ever. VERY irritating.